Stanford was obviously was not my best performance over 10k (I ran 33.53ish). I’m finding that the faster my personal bests get, the more difficult it is to beat them. It seems like that would be an easy concept to grasp but I’m still coming to terms with it.
Just two track seasons ago, my junior year at Penn State, I ran a personal best in every single race I ran that year in indoors and then outdoors until our outdoor conference meet, which tends to be tactical. That tells you two things: 1: I finally got it together and figured out what it meant to be an elite runner. and 2: My personal bests were not very good.
That was only two years ago. Since then, my expectations for myself have gotten higher. There aren’t many people in this sport that run personal bests or achieve great things and don’t think, “well…that was great, but I could be faster,” or “I did alright, but there are still a lot of people who have run better than me.”
I suppose what I’m trying to say is that my performance at Stanford (and Seattle for that matter) weren’t bad, but they aren’t quite where I’d like to be.
I would love to run personal best times in every single race I run. Sometimes, that’s what I expect from myself. But the reality is that that hasn’t happened this season.
Do you want to know what I’m doing about it? The same thing I’d be doing if I had run best times or beat everyone in my races. I’m working hard and looking ahead. Because in the end, I could linger on a bad race or bask in a great performance. But what good do either of those things do for me tomorrow when USAs are still 3 months away?
PS: Ryan and I are making a video of a day in my life. It is going to be fun and super stylish!





